Day 34 - ROCD dreams

My ROCD has actually been relatively quiet over the past couple of weeks. I've had too much other stress going on to really concentrate on it.

It came back last night though.And it hit me like a brick wall in my sleep. I woke up in a complete panic and everything.

My whole dream was about my fiance cheating on me. I didn't even see another girl or anything but he kept telling me all about her and really brazenly flaunting the fact he was seeing other girls. I stormed out of his house and kept his valentines day present then he phoned up to tell me I was being a bitch for making him be monogamous.

I woke up panicking for a few minutes because it all just felt so real. I know that he would never cheat on me ever but the tone of my dream has had me pretty shaken up all day. I had to distract myself by baking again.

That is one of my major compulsion pitfalls. I have weight issues and Body Dysmorphic Disorder and one of the best distractions I have for my obsessions is to bake. I'm not too terrible at it either. I once ended up with about 4 batches of fairy cakes in one day. And it only took a week to get through them all with my mum. It's no wonder I put on so much weight when my main compulsions are baking and binge eating.